Make Me An Instument, Oh Lord

By paulalpeterson  

This piece is an extremely important one to me.  It came out of prayer and in preparation for my first God-centered, soul painting workshop.  The prayer was a simple request that God lead me and take my ego out of the workshop making it all about the people attending, a group of my Cursillo prayer sisters.  I followed my usual process wetting the paper and dripping the paint, letting it run where it would for awhile without directing it in any way other than with my straw, blowing out the puddles.

Lo and behold, as I stood back to look at the product, there clearly appeared a robed figure complete with halo!  I was truly shocked to see the form of Mary standing there, in my painting! It was a bit scary I confess.   But, by this time, I had learned to trust the process and let go of my intent.  So, I darkened the outline around her form, lifted a little of the yellow in the halo and began collaging the components I had found for the piece.  It wasn’t until I was nearly done that I realized that she was raising her right hand, as if in a blessing (dark blue on the left of the figure)!  To me?!  Well, at that instant I knew the workshop would work just fine!  How could it not with Mary’s blessing upon it?!

There is also a child standing next to her.  I’m almost afraid to think of who it represents.

Under the Greek symbol in the upper left, is a verse from Thomas, one of the lost scrolls of the bible, it reads, “Jesus said: One does not harvest grapes from thorn bushes.  One does not pick figs from thistles, they do not bear fruit.  The good man, from the secret of his heart, produces goodness.  The wicked man, from the secret of his heart, produces wickedness.  That which is expressed, is that which overflows from the heart.”  Works for me!  I also found this piece of music, “Let the Master Use You.”  The song goes, “Pure and sweet and holy keep your heart for Him, Jesus wants you to be true.”

Finally I wrote, “Make me an instrument, oh Lord.  Lead me as I lead others who are hopeful, needy, trusting.  Mary blesses me and bids me go–trust the Lord to lead me.  Who is this child she brings?”